I whine

Posted April 28, 2010

Hello, I have been kinda busy and very lazy not posting lately. And even better this is going to be a short post. I will explain some of my absence. Last week I had my first major episode of "everything I write sucks and I should just give up now because there is no point!" Although those feelings are still sort of hanging over my head, I am going to work on what I wrote and at least fix it up enough to send it to my readers. Second opinions never hurt. :)

I also think I may have carpel tunnel syndrome or tendinitis in my right wrist so it makes things like using the mouse and typing painful. I think I may have been doing too much knitting, crocheting and possibly texting. Last night I did very little knitting just to finish up a project and ended up having a sore wrist for the rest of the evening and this morning. So I am going to try and take it easy today.

I just want to recommend a wonderful book: The Piano Man's Daughter by Timothy Findley. It's very, very, very good!

Why do you write?

Posted April 12, 2010

This morning after brewing some coffee, I took the grinds out to spread on the soil around my rose bushes. It is an absolutely GORGEOUS morning - warm sunshine, green, green grass, a gentle breeze and two happy loving dogs who were so excited to see their mum! As I am rounding the corner to my rose bushes the thought struck me that I have never been able to enjoy a spring this much. In high school I had class, homework, a part-time job and a few extra curricular activities that kept me running. In university I'd have classes and be getting ready for exams at this time. With work, I'd struggle to get out the door by eight and spend most days in the office.

This spring I am unemployed. I am usually up by nine and writing (or doing whatever I have to do that day) by ten. It's been amazing! I get to enjoy my day. I can dedicate a whole day to writing if I want. I'm not like those writers that find a million things to do around the house before they sit down to write. I am the complete opposite. I have about 4 loads of laundry that need to be folded, my bathtub needs to be washed, my kitchen floor needs to be mopped and there are dishes to do. And I get to read for pleasure as much as I want! In university, I hardly read for pleasure because it meant that I wasn't reading my textbooks (and not getting those readings done for class). Now I go to the library and I have to limit myself on how many books I can take out. Some days all I do is read. I have TONS of time to pursue other hobbies: knitting, crocheting, painting and even some photography. I'm never bored. I get to spend my time doing what I love to do.

This winter of unemployment has been a dream. I don't want to go back to some conventional job. I want to stay at home and do what I am doing. I also want a HUGE vegetable garden and a few cows for milk and chickens for eggs. I desperately dream that somehow the book that I am writing will be a hit and I will be able to make enough money to write the next, and the next and the next and be able to make my living from writing. But I know that is not reasonable at all. I don't allow myself to think about it to much for fear that I will be crushed when it doesn't happen.

Last night, I had an idea for another book, something nonfiction and completely different than I have ever thought of working on before. I think this new book idea would have a better chance at getting published and be a bigger money maker and possibly pave the way for my other books. The idea is something I am interested in, but I think my initial motivation for writing it would be for success and money. My current WIP is a story I've had in my mind for years and just plain wanted to tell. It was an indulgence of my soul - allowing myself to write and write in honesty. In "At the Bay Shore Farm" a short story by LM Montgomery, Mrs. Kennedy, a successful author, tells Francis, an aspiring authoress that she must "not write merely to win fame for herself or even for the higher motive of pure pleasure in her work. She must aim, however humbly, to help her readers to higher planes of thought and endeavour" I have held this ideal as the golden standard for writing for along time. But I am wondering today why do writers write? Because they must? To maintain sanity? For fame? Or pure pleasure of work?

Tell me, why do you write?

Editing Outline

Posted April 4, 2010

 

A few posts ago I talked about procrastinating and why I keep putting off editing. I talked about making a list of things to do for editing and I finally did! I call it my 'editing outline' and I've posted it below in hopes that it may help you too! After each item, I've added a more in depth description in italics.

 

Editing outline

 

  1. Write filler scenes and bridge gaps (Here I went through my manuscript and identified each scene that I felt still needed to be written. I skipped around a lot in my first draft and didn't worry about connecting the dots so much)

  2. Identify and evaluate all plots and subplots: keep, improve, trash (Here I identified all the plots in my story and gave them a brief outline. For example, the main character's relationship with her rival and how I want that relationship to evolve)

  3. Identify and evaluate all characters: keep, improve, merge, trash (I named each character in the story, even if they only had one line, and wrote a sentence or two about them and what role they play in the story. This allowed me to see which characters play similar roles and may be combined into one. It also provided a new perspective on the characters and helped me identify things I wanted to emphasize in some)

  4. Outline and rate all scenes for suspense, relevance , interest: keep, improve, trash. Create scene timeline throughout calendar year (I haven't done this yet, but the idea is to help me see the overall flow of my story and identify scenes that need to be jazzed up or eliminated)

  5. Fix all plot holes and inconsistencies noted in black book (In the planning stage I wrote a lot of my background information in a black lab book I have. As I was going through if I got an idea or realized there was an inconsistency in my story I'd jot it down, so I'd be able to go back and fix it later)

  6. Grammar, punctuation, word choice, repetition, story breaks (ie. Chapters), etc (The technical side of writing. I sort of have my story divided into sections, but not formal chapters so I need to go through and find logical breaks. I did start doing this earlier but I found all my chapters started with a new day in the story. That may be okay, but I wasn't sure about that yet so I decided to leave it)

  7. Reread story 

  8. Repeat 1-7 as necessary

I am finding this outline works great for me! I am very goal oriented, so crossing things off my list really motivates me. I am never in a place where I don't know what to do, because I have this whole huge outline to tell me!

Inspiration - Creating Beauty

Posted March 31, 2010

A few weeks ago I was at my grandmother's house helping her with her spring cleaning. I was in her den taking down all the paintings so I could wash the walls. Although she would deny this vehemently, my grandmother is an artist. She has been painting for over 50 years and has done some truly beautiful work. She usually works with acrylic paints, but there was one water colour picture of a seagull that I was taking down and looking at it made me choke it. It was soooooooooo beautiful. She had done such a good job and it's beauty made me choke up!

This past Sunday I went to my younger brother's first major university recital. He plays the saxophone and studies classical music. I have heard and seen my brother play countless times over the years: practicing, in church, at a band concert, etc. But seeing him perform on Sunday night, just him and the accompanist, and feeling his passion for music and performance was again completely overwhelming. I was really proud of him that night.

Although painting, music and writing are three completely different types of art, I can't help but compare them. On the one hand, I feel very insecure about my writing. For my most of my life I was afraid to write because I felt it would show too much of what it inside me. I also feel like I will never be as successful as they both have become. But on the other hand, their work truly inspires me. I don't think I will ever move someone to tears because of the beauty of my writing, but I could make someone identify with my characters so much that they feel sad when my characters are sad and happy when my characters are happy. I also feel encouraged because I have seen them both put in so much time and effort into their art and become quite successful. It makes me believe that I can also become successful.

My brother is braver than me. He knew what he loved and he chose to study it in university and wants to make it his career. I just avoided and hid what I loved. Now I am constantly asking myself if I made the right decision? If I can live from my art? I am young, it's not too late to make a career change, but I am terrified of what my family will think or say. Part of me is desperately hoping that what I am currently working on will earn me some money quick so that I can at least say "Look! I'm a success! You can't criticize my choice now." But I know that's not likely to happen. I know it takes years! But I am taking my work day by day and I am encouraged and inspired by both my grandmother and brother. Maybe 50 years from now my grandchildren will be moved by my art.

Psychology of Editing

Posted March 25, 2010

So in the true spirit of procrastination, I have even been avoiding things that take me away from my WIP (like blogging). Instead of editing my WIP I am going to tell you all about the issues I have with editing my WIP.

When I was writing my first draft, it was very exciting because the words were pouring out of me and I was writing 4000, 5000 and even 6000 words a day. It was a literary rush! I was going at such a break neck speed that whenever a teeny thought of doubt popped into my head about a character or a scene, I just brushed it aside with "It doesn't matter! This is my first draft! I'll worry about it when I start editing."

Now I am editing. I'm not pumping out thousands of words a day. I'm deleting words! I can't just fly through my MS. I have to stop and look at every little thing and figure out how best to word this sentence or find a better word to explain that emotion. When I was first writing, I was creating. Now I am refining. I once remember in a church service someone comparing the pain and struggles in our lives to sculpture. The person said that humans are like blocks of marble and that God sends unhappy circumstances into our lives to chip away the ugly bits and create a beautiful statue. That is sort of how I feel about my MS. I am chipping away all the ugly and unnecessary parts. It's time consuming and hard! It's tedious!

I am also really afraid that I am chipping away all the wrong parts! What if what I originally wrote is clearer than what I've reworded it to say? What if this scene is necessary? Am I losing an important aspect of this character by removing this line/paragraph/page? It's really nerve wracking for me. But I keep telling myself: this is your first real attempt at a novel. You will learn more. I also take some solace in my alpha and beta readers. Although I am not ready at all for them to read anything, I do trust their judgment in reading my story. I have saved my original first draft. I will save my second draft and third draft and so on. That makes me feel safer as well. Because if I do get rid of something, it is still there in another draft.

So I am going to swallow my worries and push my nerves aside and jump into editing! Well, right after my half hour lunch time tv show! ;)

 

Ciao!

 

PS I would definitely appreciate any advice/encouragement you have!

Away for the weekend!

Posted March 19, 2010

So I am terrible at keeping up with this blog, but I will not give up! This is a just a quick post.

 

Tomorrow I am heading to Mahone Bay for the EarthDream Film Festival. It's a first time event and I am very excited about it. I like things in early stages and it will be a nice trip. The weather has been so beautiful, I am looking forward to the drive and I will be staying with friends, I have contacted the husband about my visit, but we have kept it secret from the wife. :) So that will be fun! I am baking up a storm for the weekend too and it feels good - oatmeal chocolate chips and cornbread.

 

Although writing is my primary medium of expression, it can't hurt to observe other forms of expression and art forms. I'm also justifying this as a blog post on writing because of a blog post I read a while ago. Improving your authorial voice not by writing, but by watching by JC Hutchins.

 

When I get back, I promise a serious post!

Bad habits

Posted March 15, 2010

I have been working construction with my boyfriend the past little while because things have been very busy and he needed another person to be able to keep up with the work. I rarely ever call him my his first name and usually address him as 'honey' or 'baby' or an even mushier name I've given him, but won't repeat here. :) He told me to stop because if I ever accidentally called him 'honey' in front of a client it would look bad. Confident that I would never be so unprofessional I brushed his warnings aside. Guess what happened last week? Not only did I call him 'honey' twice in front of the client, but I also lost my balance and grabbed a certain part of his anatomy to steady myself *blush*.

 

This got me thinking about other not so good habits I have when it comes to writing.

1. Waiting to be inspired - writing is not something that takes place during enlightened moments. I very firmly believe that anyone can become good at anything, they just have to put in enough time and effort to realize that dream. The same goes for writing. If I hardly ever write of course I will write poorly. I become a better writer by writing and reading too! which takes me to my next bad habit

2. Taking up someone else's 'voice' - as I mentioned in the What I'm reading section what I read influences how I think and feel and write. I am a HUGE fan of Jane Austen and the Bronte sisters. They use an older, more proper English. I love the British sensibility in writing, but I'm Canadian. Although I try to mimic the great British authoresses it doesn't sound right, my story doesn't flow and everything feels forced. I think reading books has taught me much more about writing than any English class I took, but copying someone else's voice is not one of the things I should do.

3. Improperly placed punctuation - I go through phases where I am attached to certain types of punctuation. Mostly it is the semicolon, but lately it is the dash! In editing my WIP I have had to take dozens and dozens of dashes out. I guess not all of them are improperly placed, but they are definitely excessive. I use Conan the Grammarian's website to help me sort out my issues

4. Changing my verb tense - this is sort of linked to the last as it is a grammatical issue, but it is of a slightly different nature than my punctuation issue. I am always moving from past tense to present tense to future tense. For me this happens A LOT when I skip around in my WIP. For example, if I am writing a scene that will support a future scene that I have already written, I often write the new scene in past tense.

5. Not planning enough - "Failing to plan is planning to fail" (Alan Lakein). I know some writers do not plan at all and they just fly by the seat of their pants. Although I am not a meticulous planner, I do need to have a rough outline of how my story will progress. If I don't plan I will write as much as I know and then panic because I don't know how the story will end or what should happen in between the beginning and end. This is usually a cyclic process for me. I write all the major scenes and then leave blanks in between. As I am writing scenes that I should write in between will come to me and I just type up little one liners in my manuscript about what needs to be written. This will happen A LOT in the editing process as I realize that I have left important things out or have not emphasized a point enough. I even have a little black book to jot down ideas, plot holes and information about characters (ex. physical description, full name, job, etc).

 

I am aware of these habits and I am making an effort to overcome them before they come back to haunt me.

 

What are your bad habits?

Quickie ;)

Posted March 7, 2010

I've had a really busy weekend so I am just going to share my submission for a contest offered by Natalie Whipple It was a 250 word limit and you had to start with the weather, although that is considered a big no-no for starting a book. I didn't win, but you can read the entries of those who did.

 

I recently finished reading Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency by Douglas Adams. I drew my inspiration for the contest from his books.

 

A frigid breeze blew and I hunched against it. I was sitting in the snow, waiting for my sister. Normally that wouldn't be unusual except that it was July and I was on the moon. My sister is 10 years older than me and seventeen years ago became an astronaut. Back then the universe was still largely unexplored. A year after she first went into space, the astrotourism industry began. Initially, only the extremely wealthy could afford to visit space but it quickly became a hot tourist destination and everyone went gaga over the galaxy. Resorts and planetary landmarks sprung up. Space travel was a booming industry, people fought over stocks and fortunes were made thousands of times over.

Snow on the moon was new. It had never been known to happen in the history of space. About 10 years ago astronomers discovered a gargantuan asteroid heading for our solar system. It arrived yesterday and smashed into 10 days ago. Scientists were ready though and created huge nets that captured most of the large space debris and also reflected most of the heat back into the impact site. Small bits, gases and liquids escaped from the planet's atmosphere, changing the nature of any surviving planet within a 50,000 lightyear radius; surviving plants being \the moon and Saturn. All survivors are being evacuated to Saturn for its well equipped military base. My sister is piloting the rescue ship that's supposed to pick up me and 500 anxious tourists. And she's late.

 



Editing

Posted March 4, 2010

So I finished the first draft of my novel on Monday. I told myself to leave it for a few days and then go back to it. I got so excited at being done I emailed my alpha readers and told them I hoped to be done revisions by the beginning of April. I haven't looked at my manuscript yet but I know that planning to be done by April is probably a little too ambitious.

I don't really have a clear beginning. I just sort of jumped in where the action started and went through the story, leaving myself notes to introduce this character and explain that place when I got back to it. Also, whenever I got stuck in a scene, I just skipped it and went on to something I knew. I'm also not satisfied with my ending. I just sort of ended it. I want it to be a cliff hanger, as I have at least two more books in mind but I think after rereading, I will find that it falls very flat.

But I guess that is what a first draft for. It is basically the skeleton of the story. Some parts will need to be fleshed out and I guess some bones will get tossed (maybe skeleton was a not good analogy)?

I've never been much for editing, but that is what is ahead of me. I find if I know what I am going to do next, I can keep working. So my plan of attack is to go through a bunch of other authors' blogs and try what they suggest. That way I can figure out what works for me and be super thorough (or so I hope).

So, let the editing begin!

The first post

Posted March 2, 2010

My first blog post, seems like it should be extremely witty and full of 'sparkling epigrams' and set the stage for posts to come! I've never really liked writing introductions or conclusions so I guess I am just going to jump right in!

 

Yesterday I finished a very rough first draft. In an attempt to let my story stew for a few days I am not going to read it until Thursday. As I have spent most of my days for the past two months writing, I am going a little crazy. Although I must thank Natalie Whipple for posting a small contest which kept me busy today!

During the last half of my first draft I had a really hard time getting the words out. I have a few of things I do to get 'in the writing zone.' First of all I have my own space. I have a room with a desk and all my books and my sewing machine, which is completely my space where I often go to write.

Second, I set the tone. I almost always have candles lit while I write, one (or more) of which is scented. I almost always have a hot drink; coffee or tea. On occasion I will play some music to get me in the mood. One of my favourite artists is Babette Hayward

Third, I get into character. In that room I also have a small jewelery box full of things I don't really wear anymore. One day I opened it up and found this funky necklace a friend had made of hemp and stones from the beach. As my story deals a lot with the sea I took it as a sign and slipped the necklace on as a muse. That same day I also donned a purple cowgirl hat, as my 'thinking cap.' I even have a small tiara that I wore to my prom, that I will wear on occasion.

I know that wearing a tiara, or smelling a scented candle doesn't make me a better writer. Writing, writing and more writing makes me a better writer. However, these things that I do are mental triggers and forms of preparation that help me get into a writing frame of mind.

Now, my question is for you, what do you do to get in 'the zone?'

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